Manifesto

Life is always complicated and confusing. There is no simple answer, ever, so basically it's just a question of learning from mistakes so you avoid repeating them, and make new and different ones instead.

The problem is honestly, no matter WHAT you have, what you do, where you are, you will always always always want something else. And I hate the thought of living my life that way -- never making the most of what I have when I have it, but rather always mourning something that once was and no longer is.

It's the relay-race of life, the non-ending race to get more, or better, or who knows what, and trying in the midst of all the stupidity, all the efforts to escape the pain, the reality, the RESPONSIBILITY we all have for our own existence, and find MEANING under it all. Find WORTHWHILE endeavors to pursue, ways of growing and becoming more USEFUL, more human, more aware.

I think it's too simple what they say in Buddhism, "All life is suffering" because honestly, it's not; life is full of joy and non-suffering, but as soon as that goes away, what's left is suffering, the shadow of the Once Was and the fear of the Never Will Be Again.

The only people who are worthwhile in life are the ones who worry about that. The ones who face the hard questions, who confront the reality and wonder why the hell anyone is doing what they're doing, why we don't all just stop & let chaos reign? What's the point of it all?

Seize the day. Ceuillez le jour... simply, honestly, BE ALIVE.

And also, a metaphor:

we are cheese wheels, and life is one [giant and heartless] grater.